Photo from Shanghai from 3 years ago This week I talked to a classmate about our experiences in China, and it dawned on me how much I miss the rest of the world. It feels like this school year, despite mostly being back in person at school and returning little by little to how life was before COVID, I've lost my connection to what's beyond LA, CA, and the US. I still get the same news and take globally-minded courses, but I can't bring myself back to the otherworldly experiences I've had elsewhere.
Being so tired going through my routine and having so much angst at the end of my high school years is certainly not just my experience, but I think it really has contributed to me forgetting just how expansive the rest of the world is. I watch these TV shows, eat my food (which is international, just it's a lot of the same), and generally go through my LA motions, but I have lost the spuriousness that I've only felt elsewhere. Without actually visiting anywhere or interacting with non-US citizens much, my mindset feels shrinking, and I care so much less about the little details around me. Maybe I've sacrificed paying so much attention and a little of my ability to learn to care much less. I've been blessed with so many great unique experiences, but I am only focused on my daily getting lunch and other monotonous activities. With my sense as it is, I can't break out right now: I'm inhibited by everything I can't have yet, so I am ever hopeful for what's ahead, but I feel like I've been in this period of transition for so long. Traveling has given me the option to take glimpses into the dynamic-ness of life, and right now, I want that option back. Having a global sense is more than experience. It's the quality of seeing the other options when you're would just be going through the motions.
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